I wish to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for initially in an extended while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was the idea that I will be doing this for the wrong reason; as a means to prevent my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I’d had any insights. What I’m about to share was not yet clear during those times; only on the drive away achieved it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never needs to have told you, never needs to have enable you to see inside. a course in miracles Don’t are interested troubling your brain, won’t you allow it be?” This confused me as I really could not think of anything that I’d stated that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that probably the most prominent fear I’d in visiting the Monastery was that I’d somehow interfere with its residents’peace of mind, by simply my presence alone. This belief that I really could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored a lot of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief is being (has been?) released.
You can find other items that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.