I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
From the time I first became aware of the stunning and awe-inspiring existence of God, I have enjoyed examining several great spiritual works like the Bible (my beloved components will be the Sermon on the Support and Psalms), the Bhagavad-Gita, the Upanishads, the Koran and the poetry of Kabir and Rumi. None of them come near to the greatness of a Program in Miracles. Examining it having an open mind and heart, your doubts and difficulties rinse away. You become alert to a wonderful love heavy within you – greater than whatever you knew before. The long run starts to appear so brilliant for you personally and your loved ones. You’re feeling love for everyone else including these you formerly have attempted to leave excluded. These activities are extremely effective and sometimes place you down harmony a little, but it’s worthwhile: A Program in Wonders presents you to a enjoy so peaceful, so solid and therefore common – you’ll question how so most of the world’s religions, whose goal is apparently an identical knowledge, got therefore off track.
I want to claim here to any Religious who thinks that his church’s teachings don’t really satisfy his desire to learn a kind, merciful and loving God, but is significantly scared to see the Program because of others’ statements it is unpredictable with “true” Christianity: Don’t worry! I’ve see the gospels many times and I assure you that the Course in Wonders is totally consistent with Jesus’ teachings while he was on earth. Don’t concern the fanatical defenders of exclusionist dogma – these bad people think themselves to be the sole companies of Jesus’ message, and the only real kinds worthy of his benefits, while all the should go to hell. A Program in Miracles reflects Jesus’ true information: unconditional love for *all people*. While he was on the planet, Jesus thought to decide a tree by its fruit. So give it a try and see how the fruits that ripen in your lifetime taste. Should they taste bad, you can reject A Class in Miracles. But if they taste as sweet as mine do, and the millions of different true seekers who have discovered A Course in Miracles to be nothing less than the usual incredible prize, then congratulations – and may possibly your center often be abundantly filled with peaceful, warm joy.